Playing small doesn't change what people think of you. Living should never be about pleasing others. You first in everything you do.
Your friends are your most assured connections, believe it or not. Most people up there have been fortunate to have kept at least a friend with purpose...
As I said, I wish I could say it was easy. It wasn't, but it wasn't hard either. But without a strong reason or purpose, anything in life is hard.
Your "I am" goes beyond state of mind, it is more of a personal confession and you know something about confession, some how it influences both your psychic and the supernatural.
Be nice to yourself, don't give others power over your life, know what to share and what to hold on to.
In other words, getting closer to God through Christ to be rich is just like going to school so you can be rich, one is not necessary a prerequisite of the other. You can be rich without God, just as you can be rich without going to school, examples of these abound.
Keep pushing the hustle is real, so is the reward.
But remember, no one survives alone on being beautiful. Beauty is nature's gift but should not replace knowledge, hard work, excellence, perseverance, kindness and tolerance.
A student from a struggling home got to University and made friends with party-loving girls and boys from wealthy homes. The student became pressured to wear designers, go to parties, live expensive "lies"...