The truth is nobody owes you, so stop living a lie, stop feeling entitled; your uncle, your brother, your old friends, they can help if they want to but it is not your right to get help from them, so if they don’t, you can’t hold it against them. You would have to help yourself
You can judge me as much as you like, that also makes you human, we put to sword when we can’t ration the whys and the whats. I would be surprised if you had done otherwise. However, sins are sins, no double standard before God, because mine seems more grievous to you doesn’t make yours less grievous to someone else.